Ramblings of here and there

I’m hungry (yup you’ll hear that from me again and again) and to make things worse, it’s my menstrual day today. I feel so weak with this hunger and aching-everywhere body. I really want to lie down, or to take a nap and just forget about all this.

But July is my busy-as-bee month. With 2 big meeting, some additional meeting with JKR in which no date has been specified yet, some seminars on asset management and some backlogs of works that I can’t seem to deal with. Meetings mean paperwork, minutes and stuff. Arghh….

I want to go home. I miss my family. Well at least I can be crazy with them talking rubbish, laughing like idiots and be totally nuts with jokes and stuff and can temporarily shut off all this stressing thought of work (the never-ending of it), of money (I’m seriously broke but with many expensive desires), of debts (my PTPTN, credit cards – eh this one comes under money la right) and I’m just plain bored with all this routine thing. I need a break.

Sigh…… (a long ones)

Is this how Ethopian feels?

I’m hungry and it makes me weak and moody. Nothing I eat can satisfy the hunger pang. I used to be a quick eater but when I had to eat slowly, sucking most of the time and adjusting the wire that keep pricking my inner cheek, I became a bit frustrated of my slowness thus losing the appetite too.

Yesterday for lunch I had plain porridge with delicious soup but in the end I didn’t finished it due to that adjusting frustrations. By 5pm, I was like starving with my tummy making all kind of sound. So we (En. Nasrol, my devoted dining partner) went to Big Apple for dinner. Why doughnut? Because it’s soft, fluffy and with great taste too. It took me nearly 1 hour to finish 2pc of donut and each suapan nearly bring tears to my eyes.

This morning I had high fibre biscuits soaked in Milo; lots of it but I didn’t have anything for lunch. As for dinner, I’m still deciding whether to have bread with mashed potatoes (KFC), McD’s porridge (thus putting an end to my ban) or mushroom soups with breadstick (Pizza). The mashed potatoes sound tasty but the bread is not really soft without soups. Haish….

I’m looking forward to learn on how to cook delicious porridge with lost of stuff in it. Something like bubur lambuk or the one I had right after my surgeries. Anyone have recipes to share? Kylnn?

My mind is occupied with foods all the time now. What to eat, what to eat, what to eat? Lapar laaaaa…..

Work in progress

Life would never be the same. Well at least for the time being. Food would never taste the same and eating is torturous ok. How come those who underwent the same treatment looked cool aje?

Last Friday as being scheduled, I went to install (not a computer programme but) the steel bracket inside my mouth. More than 2 hours of gaping ok. I forgot to bring toothbrush and I’m in a hurry so I didn’t take any lunch before the procedure, not wanting to have food particles in my mouth for the dentist to see; decision that I regretted much later. Knowing that I’m hungry, the dentist asked to eat first but I refused. So they started the procedure by taking photos of my teeth first. Smile snap, turn to right snap, snap here snap there and then she put this appliance which made my mouth to open up widely. Took some more photos and off we go.

She applied some paste to my tooth and sprays it with some liquid. It tasted a bit salty. Using something like the battery operated toothbrush but with blue lamp tip, the assistant would then put the appliance at tooth until it’s beeped. The dentist pasted the small bracket to each tooth followed but that blue lamp appliance. I think it’s fastened the drying out process (of the glue)and bonded the bracket and the tooth tightly.

I didn’t feel anything when they did the front teeth but the last molar one was quite painful coz they removed the gaping appliance by then and the inner lips keep stucking at the newly installed bracket. I was groaning a bit and the dentist would then adjust the lip. It was quite funny ok. The last part was attaching the small steel wires. This wire is the ones that give pressure to each tooth thus pulling the teeth together.

When she was done, I tried to clamp the teeth together (like chewing) when to my horror, I realised that I can’t bite. My right maxillary and mandibular lateral incisor (wah can be dentist you) which is actually the second front upper and lower tooth were slightly behind the other so the upper tooth stuck with the lower bracket. I have loose bite thus chewing is not possible.

I was like “Alamak, camne saya nak makan ni doctor?” The dentist said she can’t teach me how to eat but I will soon learn to adjust myself. Haish…. not being able to chew means no solid food. I do not wish to eat porridge forever. My other option would be soaked biscuits and breads, mashed potatoes and wheat’s and oat’s cereal drink. There goes my pizza, spaghetti, burgers and of course rice with delicious side dishes.

I wanted to have the blue rubber ring (like Ugly Betty) but was told the bracket I used does not come with any ring. If not I would have beautiful blue smile. I'm blue, da be di da be da....

The first 2 day my teeth were so sensitive. I can’t even touch my teeth without excruciating in pain. The pain subsided on Sunday but the gnawing sensations remain. Sometimes when I accidentally chewed my teeth while asleep, the pain would send me awake in shock. Ouch that hurts!

It took hours to brush my teeth with 2 different brush; ortho and interdental brush. I prepared myself with the brushes, Oral Aid (for ulcers) and medicated mouthwash before I went to the clinic. The clinic then supplied me with a wax in case the brackets and the wires would interfere with my delicate inner lip and cheek.

The wires at the end would sometimes stuck into my inner cheek while eating and talking so sometimes during that time I would be seen adjusting my mouth; ops-I-got-a-wire-stucked-in-my-mouth-and-I-need-to-adjust-this so it can painful, disappointing yet funny. I’m salivating like no body business too. Slurps…slurp…hehehe….

I’m in constant hunger due to lack of food intake. The body need food but the mouth doesn’t approve it. The best dieting gadget huh. Hopefully my weight can be reduced then. I don’t how long I’m stuck with this thing but hoping for a different me; a better smile and a better weight in near future. Oh the treatment not only burns a hole in my pocket or wallet but burned the whole saving book. I’m scrapping the plan on buying LCD TV too. Sigh….

My new steel smile (I look so tembam la...)

Laluan yang bengkang-bengkok

My new must-have-stuff

You've got visitor

Why oh why must everyone have to come today. Ok not that I don’t like people to come to see me but today is not the best day for me to entertain everyone. So I’m afraid that someone might feel abandoned or anything. I’m sorry but I’ll try to layan everyone ok.

My cousins, Along and Angah arrived last night from Kedah. Along’s going to report duty again but this time as the Computer Technician. Angah just finished his study so he tagged along. I left them with nothing much to eat at home. If they informed me earlier I can at least buy some food.

Yuzi, my friend from Kelantan is coming down to Putrajaya for some official visit. When I went to KB, she treated me well so I do not wish to pass this rare opportunity by not doing enough for her.

I need to settle some financial stuff at the bank around 1pm and then I got this appointment at 2pm. Both can’t be delayed anymore for there would be no better time than today.

So how? I can’t take leave or half day for I got this important minutes to submit. What will my cousins have for lunch? I wanted Yuzi to come over to my place but with those boys, she might be reluctant. And considering my condition later after the appointment, where something would be difficult to do, haish…

Oh thank God the boys just informed me that they’re going out. So don’t have to think about their lunch but still have to buy some stuff to cook for dinner and during their stay.

Ok times up. See ya next week with a different me.

The last of that smile

I’ve been contemplating to do something that should’ve been done years before. It’s not an easy decision because of many things that need to be considered. Plus some sacrifice that need to be made too. It took a whole lot of courage and I’ve reached this far; a point of no return. It’s either now or never.

So, please see this smile as it’ll be the last of its kind. Eny will never be the same again. Wait for more revelation ok.

The one that make me realize that something look so ugly (no wonder growing up, I don't smile a lot espeacially to strangers)

Took this photo just now.

It took a lots and lots of courage to smile like this to a man ok. (yup Nasrol the cameraman)

MJ is gone

Have you all heard the news? Michael Jackson has died. He’s suffering from cardiac arrest and they can’t revive him. He’s such an icon that I still find it difficult to believe the news. But believe it or not, he’s gone and will sadly remember as The Legendary King of Pop. The one and only.

Even with all his highly publicised issues; plastic surgeries, child molesting, bankruptcy, converting to Islam and what not, this man really got talent and I grow up listening to his song. Oh suddenly Black and White video clip flashes in my mind. Billy Jean, Smooth Criminal, Aint’ no Sunshine and many more.

I guess the media will finally stop harassing this man. Now that he’s passed on, all the bad news will stop and the good ones will be covering the paper and mags now.

I wonder what will happen to his 3 kids. They are too young and will there be enough funds left for them to live on. And his most famous house, The Neverland Ranch. I bet this place will suddenly be on hot list for it can be memorable place where fans can come and see his stuff and remember all the good things happen to them when Michael Jackson is still alive and entertaining everyone. Heard that all his stuffs are being auction and yeah the price will be skyrocketing after this.

Whatever it is, thanks MJ for the entertainment all this while. You rock man!

A strike of brilliant ideas

A friend of mine is getting married in 3-4 months. There’s too much to do and there’s too little time. We were discussing about it when suddenly an idea struck. Told her about it and it send both of us laughing hilariously.

Although I put everything on my to-do list, sometimes there’s still things left out and to make things worse, some very important stuff. And even though I like to start early, planning and what not, I always ended up finishing everything at the very last minutes coz that’s when all my idea, good ones tend to come.

So I’ve been thinking, maybe I should:-

Take all the necessary documents, fill up everything, prepares all supportive documents, everything lah except the grooms part. Coz obviously I have no candidates yet right.

Since I already went to marriage course (during my DPA so it’s not the case of tak jadi nak kawin ok) so I’m done with that but have to do some HIV test. But do you think the doctor will think something fishy about me? I’m a virgin so obviously I’m not sexually active (the normal question doctor will ask) and I’m not getting married in somewhere near future. Because this are the only thing why people take that test right? Do we need to write any reason on the forms or do we need to put grooms name on it? Never mind, I’ll check that part with that friend.

Make my list of stuff I want for hantaran. Survey the price and bought it right away if everything permits; my financial, price is ok and all. Then I can do some survey on the decoration. Luckily I got a friend doing this (yup it’s you Syeena). Most important thing, keep all receipt and prove of purchase.

I’m not a fan of jewelleries but still at least during wedding should get a set right. Since this is the only time I’ll buy jewelleries (sure ke ni?) so I should buy something nice and expensive. But not too expensive la, within reasonable budget. I like (eh tadi kata not a fan) ok sort of like la… a platinum ring with diamond on it. A white gold necklace that comes with solitaire and a diamond bracelet. I don’t pierce my ear so no need to have earrings. Fuyooo I wonder much all that will cost. Again should keep all receipt and prove of purchase. The name engraving has to wait till I got the candidates ok.

Ok what else…

I don’t have any dream wedding. And I’ve never think of what theme I want for my wedding. So have to start surveying for it.

Since I have so many friends (and many of them are complaining of my rare calls/smses), I have to start my list of friend to invite. I sure do not want to miss anyone this time. Oh got to think on cards too. But then cards should match the theme right? No?

Then when I found that special someone and he said “Honey, lets get married” (is this how people say it? Too damn straight and “honey” tu… pergh tak bleh blah), I said yes and can straightaway give him all the documents for him to fill up and all the receipts for claim. Hehehe… Kan senang.

But what if I’m destined not to get married. Then how? Its ok coz at least I got all the stuff right. Not that it can’t be used.

There you go; an idea that come like a bulb in bubble (macam dalam kartun tu). Oh have I told you that “high imagination” is my middle name? Hehehe…

Oi budak!

I hate it when just because someone works for somebody big, that someone become big-headed and thought everyone is nothing to him/her. Not that I’m so proud of being some officer (junior that macai sound better) but at least give some respect la. If I and many other officer can respect those of lower grade, why can’t them? And this is not even on grade thingy but more of ourselves. Our mentality. Respect people and people will respect us.

Our minister wanted to install a glass door at his office and that door comes with some thumb print security system. En. Mis was the one responsible on it as the supplier already taught him on how the set the system up. Due to some reason, some people thumb print can’t be set into the system yet.

Last Friday, someone from minister office called and ask for “budak yang set kan system tu”. Er hello… who are you to simply call people “budak”? Mind you this caller is someone of 17 and lower grade. We were so pissed off thus we’ve been calling that person a grade 71 staff. Obviously he thinks that since he’s in that office, his grade is higher than everyone else and he can simply call people “budak”.

Luckily it was Naras who answered the call. I wonder what will happen if some other officer answered it.

To that person, nothing is permanent in this world. Those on top will not be on top forever and those at bottom will not be at bottom forever too. And sometimes the consequence of our bad act will not fallback to us but to our loves one which is worse right.

Contraceptive lunch

It was during lunch at pantry yesterday when suddenly I became involve in a conversation that I’m not sure how at some point were discussing about the contraceptive thingy. Everyone is married (with or without kids) and I’m the only virgin. Hehehe…. But don’t underestimate me coz obviously I know more than them it seems. (errr… of course theoretically only la ok).

It’s good to know that things I learn during my 3 and a half years tenure with Guardian can be shared with people that hardly a customer there. Well if you know me long enough I’m sure you notice how I like the knowledge-sharing session and I can go for hours explaining stuff that I have some knowledge of. (thus came the numerous suggestion for me to join the marketing field)

And so yesterday it all started with the pills. They were so surprised to hear my explanation on the pills; Mercilon, Marvelon, Nordette, Jasmine, Dianne 45 and of course the morning after pills. Hehehe… Ahah suddenly I remember, it all started with how the lelembuts (MR. Auwww) got their nice soft and supple skin. I told them that it’s due to them taking the pills. And of course not only them the lelembuts, women could have nice skin too if they took the pills. I explained to them the pro and cons of taking pills, how to get started and when to pop in the first pills. I went on with the morning after pills coz they ought to know and all are already married pun so there would be no misuse issue (I hope).

Finished off with the pills, we dive into con-con (condom) stuff plak. I was so surprised that they don’t even know that this con-con stuff comes in many types. We had hilarious moment yesterday. Hajar was the craziest one with all kind of wild joke. How not to laugh further when knowing that this people never heard of lubricants. Hahaha… but still as I emphasized again and again yesterday, I can only explain theoretically only coz obviously I never had any first hand experience with all the stuff.

Luckily lunch break is only 1 hour. I don’t know what kind of wild jokes this people would crack if the time is longer. And I’m glad that at least I have something to share with these sub staffs that goes beyond the normal day to day work matters only. Sharing is caring and I believe that whatever knowledge we have, no matter how trivial it might sound, we ought to share it coz we’ll never know if this stuff might comes handy to those who comes to know about it too. So for those who might want to know about the above stuff but a bit shy, feel free to ask me. Oh only for married people ok coz I don't want to make any dosa kering abetting with any wrongdoings.

Uber Amazing Blog? Phew....

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• Write 5 interesting facts about the person who gave you this award
• Write 10 interesting facts about yourself or you hobbies
• Pick your 10 most deserving recipients and describe them
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1. 5 interesting facts about the person who gave you this award

Ok let see how much I know about this Switakon girl

• She's shorter than me. hahaha..... ok no offense to you Yanti but it's true right?


• She have a whole lot collection of shoes. I wonder how long it'll take for one shoes to get worn-out.


• She's a DVD-maniac. Eh bila nak start plan sharing is caring ni Yanti? Okeh start buat list ek. I'll do mine too.


• I think instead of oxygen, she breath-in sugar. That's explain her hyperactive manner.


• She got nice camera; Nikon DSLR and she take nice photos. Although I don't have any DSLR camera (yet), can you be my tutor in photography thingy?

2. 10 interesting facts/hobbies about me

Hehehe.... I bet most of you don't know most of the things that I'll put here... well except for the fact that I cried easily

• I don't fancy longer than a week nails. I cut my nails every week and feel a bit embarrassed when people see my not-yet-cut nails.


• I think I have problems with my tear ducts coz I cried at every single thing. Real-life story shared over some drinks, a book, a movie, when seeing/hearing/thinking about something that touch my heart, and many more la.


• Believe it or not, I've never been in relationship (with man) yet. Ok as a friend tu ramai la but the I love you-I love you too tu not yet. And I'm not ashamed of it at all.


• I don't drink room-temparature drink except for plain water. My tea/coffee/milo (plain or with milk) must be very hot or icy cold. I don't like it warm either.


• I have very high empathy. I have feeling (deep feeling) towards everything in this life thus explaining my problems with my tear ducts. And with my blood pressure too.


• I'm art-blind. I can't write any poem, I can't draw, I can't paint, I can't colour, I can't decorate anything, I can't sing, I can't play any musical instrument (except for recorder); everything that need some creativity is really not meant for me.


• I don't play with balls. Be it netball, basketball, sofbal, futsal and even volleyball. Ok the only time I play volleyball was during Moero Attack madness and that was like a good 19 years ago.


• Besides not playing with balls, I'm just so not into sport. And I don't watch sport stuff too. The only thing sport-worthy thing that I enjoyed watching are gymnastic and synchronise swimming. Why la I'm not as elastic as them.


• I love books and movies (serial drama still count as movie la kan) and music. I love documentaries too. But I don't read academic book (thus explaining why I'm so blurred in everything) and I don't watch something that is ecomically incline like Money Matters and stuff like that.


• I love watching people. Yes please beware of my eyes. Watching peoples is something that I enjoyed and mostly I'll notice that something is happening among peoples I saw even for a glance; even while shopping for groceries at pasar malam ok. Eh kenapa maid dia menangis (yup I saw that last week at Alamanda), tengok tu couple tu tengah konfrantasi tu and macam-macam la.

3. 10 most deserving recipients and something I know about them

Ok this can be tough coz I don't really have that much friend in this blog world but I can at least try la kan to see how much I know about my friend

• klynn - she talks very fast, fun to be with, her spaghetti is the best in the world lah and mother to Afnan (yup her son shared the same name with En. Afnan)


• adli - one of the tallest in this Ministry, drive an antic Proton Saga and a father to Salsabila


• intanyus - pregnant with her 1st child and I think share the same interest with me; reading


• jellyd - so much into online shopping, very informative and really not stingy in knowledge sharing mostly about breastfeeding and dealing with early motherhood stuff


• peanut - my Ulu Sepat watchmate, very manja with voluptuous body (that make many guy having nosebleed) and just tied the knot last week with her MrAR


• syeena - my sidang A-mate, Kak Amy's siamese twin (that of course have been separated...hehehe...) and she's been obviously busy lately (thus explaining the rare update)


• dawn - she's a Canadian. She lead a colourful life with her son (and hubby of course). She's into sport (with all the running, swimming and games), knitting (very talented ok) and I just love stuff she did with the kids (craftwork at home and even during the camping trip). Overall, she's very creative and artristic. Her blog is a must read for stay at home mother.


• mandi - she's an American. She got nice hair and smile (thus explaining where the boys got theirs esp Isaac). She took gorgeous photos and very creative too (mostly in photography thingy)

Well I think thats about it, only 8 receiver. I got more but they already got the award from Yanti so no need for me to give again la right.