Ish kenapa la I boleh terbuka pulak blog si minah ni. Ergh terus mood jadi tak ceria coz things that happened during army module tarbayang-bayang balik. I haaaate! During DPA, she’s one of those yang I agak rapat. But due to her mulut puaka *sorry but I can’t help myself from uttering this*, she hurt me to the max that and in no way I would forgive nor forget things that she said and done to me. Ish berdosa la plak I nikan sebab bersikap macam ni but that’s me. Knowing myself, for being super sensitive towards everything, I try so hard to brace myself from easily hating people because they hurt my fragile feelings but what else can I do if people keep hurting again and again and again. Ignore? Nah….. easier said than done I guess.
She’s one of those yang sering melontarkan kata-kata yang tak enak di telinga dan hati I but still I sabar coz after knowing her for quite sometime, I know that’s her style. Tapi masa kat PULADA tu memang sangat kritikal la. As Mak Sidang, I was responsible towards each and every action of my anak buah. Apa-apa pun I kena dulu. Dah la kena maki hamun, kena denda squat jump la, tepuk lalat la, front positions la. Ditambah lagi dengan kecederaan yang dialami sebab jatuh tangga tu so that was a very critical situation for me. I end up crying all the times.
Some gave good support while some contribute more stress towards my already depressing condition. Thanks to Kak Diana, Didi, Yanti and Min for being there when I most need it. But still no one can really understand what I’ve been through unless; diorang jadi I.
I can still remember stuff that came out from her mouth during jalan lasak in which I was the last member of my team to arrive. Yes I was the one who caused my team not being able to secure the top place but I was in so much pain ok. And I don’t know why but during that critical time, not a single tear come out. I was so much in pain and yet there’s this determination in me that keep pushing me to go on and finished the things. Alhamdulillah I managed to finish it albeit being the last person.
Right after that kena masuk baris. Everyone else dah buka uniform diorang while me being terkial-kial nak buka baju sendiri. Terketar-ketar dah masa tu. Thank God someone yang I tak sangka langsung akan menolong I telah menolong membukakan butang-butang kat uniform tu *ish masa type ni rasa nak menangis lah pulak sebab teringat-ingat betapa sengsaranya I masa tu and kesudian that guy untuk membantu I* Sedangkan kawan sendiri, mengeluarkan statement yang merobek-robek hati I.
Tu belum cerita pasal things that she and another mulut puaka said to me masa tengah mencuci senjata. Ya Allah never in a million year I would imagine someone would say that to me; depan the whole platoon and depan jurulatih sekali. Rasa macam nak menangis tapi I try not to sebab tengah berbual dengan jurulatih semua, nanti diorang kata I ni gila pulak menangis tetiba kan. Infact right after that ada orang tanya kat I "eh tadi kena si polan dan si polan cakap macam tu? Macam nak menjatuhkan you je". Jatuh ke ape ke, yang penting ianya macam menambahkan garam dekat luka yang dah parah tu.
Bendanya mungkin kecil aje pada orang lain but not for me. What ever it was, as I said earlier, I can never forgive nor forget that incident.
Moral of the story : Kadang-kadang kawan kita tak dapat mencapai ekspektasi kita but still that doesn’t mean kawan kita tu is a bad person in what ever manner. Andai kata kita tak dapat mengeluarkan kata-kata yang baik dek kerana terlalu marah atau kecewa, then jangan berkata-kata langsung. For sometimes our word might worsen the situation. A broken heart might took forever to heal. Love your friend while we can for we can never know what will happen in the future. Kita mungkin akan amat memerlukan bantuan mereka ataupun mereka akan meninggalkan dunia ini lebih awal.
She’s one of those yang sering melontarkan kata-kata yang tak enak di telinga dan hati I but still I sabar coz after knowing her for quite sometime, I know that’s her style. Tapi masa kat PULADA tu memang sangat kritikal la. As Mak Sidang, I was responsible towards each and every action of my anak buah. Apa-apa pun I kena dulu. Dah la kena maki hamun, kena denda squat jump la, tepuk lalat la, front positions la. Ditambah lagi dengan kecederaan yang dialami sebab jatuh tangga tu so that was a very critical situation for me. I end up crying all the times.
Some gave good support while some contribute more stress towards my already depressing condition. Thanks to Kak Diana, Didi, Yanti and Min for being there when I most need it. But still no one can really understand what I’ve been through unless; diorang jadi I.
I can still remember stuff that came out from her mouth during jalan lasak in which I was the last member of my team to arrive. Yes I was the one who caused my team not being able to secure the top place but I was in so much pain ok. And I don’t know why but during that critical time, not a single tear come out. I was so much in pain and yet there’s this determination in me that keep pushing me to go on and finished the things. Alhamdulillah I managed to finish it albeit being the last person.
Right after that kena masuk baris. Everyone else dah buka uniform diorang while me being terkial-kial nak buka baju sendiri. Terketar-ketar dah masa tu. Thank God someone yang I tak sangka langsung akan menolong I telah menolong membukakan butang-butang kat uniform tu *ish masa type ni rasa nak menangis lah pulak sebab teringat-ingat betapa sengsaranya I masa tu and kesudian that guy untuk membantu I* Sedangkan kawan sendiri, mengeluarkan statement yang merobek-robek hati I.
Tu belum cerita pasal things that she and another mulut puaka said to me masa tengah mencuci senjata. Ya Allah never in a million year I would imagine someone would say that to me; depan the whole platoon and depan jurulatih sekali. Rasa macam nak menangis tapi I try not to sebab tengah berbual dengan jurulatih semua, nanti diorang kata I ni gila pulak menangis tetiba kan. Infact right after that ada orang tanya kat I "eh tadi kena si polan dan si polan cakap macam tu? Macam nak menjatuhkan you je". Jatuh ke ape ke, yang penting ianya macam menambahkan garam dekat luka yang dah parah tu.
Bendanya mungkin kecil aje pada orang lain but not for me. What ever it was, as I said earlier, I can never forgive nor forget that incident.
Moral of the story : Kadang-kadang kawan kita tak dapat mencapai ekspektasi kita but still that doesn’t mean kawan kita tu is a bad person in what ever manner. Andai kata kita tak dapat mengeluarkan kata-kata yang baik dek kerana terlalu marah atau kecewa, then jangan berkata-kata langsung. For sometimes our word might worsen the situation. A broken heart might took forever to heal. Love your friend while we can for we can never know what will happen in the future. Kita mungkin akan amat memerlukan bantuan mereka ataupun mereka akan meninggalkan dunia ini lebih awal.
5 comments:
babe...sabarlah. ada balasan kalau orang bermulut puaka. so long that kita tau kita macam mana then its ok. dun pikir2 sangat k!!!!
Eny,
Aku ingat orang tu...Sangat terejut ok, sebab appearance dia sangat normal, acyually nampak macam budak baik.
Tak sangka kan?
Peopla aren't always what they seem...
Be strong dear... You will meet more people like this, maybe even worst.
Just dont change because of these people.
To me, orang mulut puaka jangan dibalas balik. nanti sama je macam dia.
eny,
siapakah org itu??
apsal syeena x tahu pasal hal nie???
jap jap jap....eh...mcm tau jek...
tp tak confirm la....
eny,
tetibe teringat insiden2 kat pulada tu.
yup, look can always be very deceiving.
xpe la eny. think positive.
mungkin masa tu tgh stress, penat sbb tu boleh terkeluar mcm2 kan.
eh eh? apesal tetibe aku blur eh siapakah insan kejam itew?
ingat awk ada citer tp boleh hilang ingatan pulak sape that person..xpela eny, xyah ingat benda2 x best...di bulan baik ni cuba la utk forgive n forget...
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