On my own

It’s been 2 days. 2 days living on my own, at my own place. It took me 30 years to actually do this ok. It’s always been either at my parents nest, hostels or with friends *renting la of course…*. I’ve never lived on my own before. Yeah sometimes I was left alone but still it was not my own place right. I have mixed feelings over this new lifestyle *lifestyle la sangat*.

So far *for 2 days, how far that can be huh*, I kind of happy yet missed some perks that I used to have before. Happy coz if not because of this new home, I won’t have things that I have at my home now; mostly at kitchen area lah setakat ni kan. Happy coz I can decide how my place should be. I have control over everything. The cleanliness, the arrangements *macam la banyak sangat barang pon…* dan macam-macam lah. And because of living alone jugaklah I started to recite Quran back. Siap pegi beli kat MPH lagi on Sunday tu. Ni cerita takut punya pasal la ni. Alhamdulillah setakat ini tiada apa-apa yang berlaku. Mudah-mudahan dilindungi dari gangguan manusia dan bukan manusia la hendaknya. Amin…

Living on my own means I have to let go stuffs that I took for granted before. 1st; cooking. You know how bad my cooking skill kan. I always had someone to cook for me before. Walaupun not specifically masak for me but I had housemates yang pandai masak. Dah la pandai, rajin plak tu. Agaknya dah ketentuan Allah. Dia tau hamba dia ni bukan setakat tak pandai masak, pemalas nak masak plak tu. So He arranged me to lived with those yang rajin+pandai masak ni. Walaupun kadang-kadang tu masak sendiri lah jugak sebab tak de orang nak masak tapi setakat masak maggi and goreng udang je lah kan.

So, on Sunday tu I telah mula merajinkan diri untuk memasak. For breakfast I cooked fried rice using leftover sardines and buat cekodok bawang. Sardines tu pun, Rehan yang masak actually. The cekodok was ok but the fried rice; I tak makan pun coz ntah ape la rasanya. It was Rehan who ate it. Hopefully tak de la teruk sangat rasanya. Yesterday for dinner I fried shrimps and buat telur dadar. For sahur plak *oh ye I puasa hari ni* I goreng ayam je tapi ayam tu mentah la. Bengang betoi. And that’s all yang I tau masak pun. Nak masak ikan or daging leceh la plak coz kene siang ikan and potong daging. Menyesalnya kerna tak belajar masak sebelum ni. Actually there’s a few dishes lagi yang I tau how to cook; theoretically. Practically; the rasa was awful. After a few complaints, I stopped cooking. Yelah, dah la tak minat memasak, pastu terpaksa masak plak, siap kene komplen lagi. Sah-sah bengang kan.

Actually everyone in my family knows how to cook except me. Selalu dapat makan sedap-sedap kalau kat rumah. So the biggest challenge for me now is to learn how to cook so that I won’t starve to death la kan *ceh dramatic je lebih*. Kene belajar bersungguh-sungguh demi untuk pandai masak. Not only belajar tapi kena rajin juga coz boleh la polish skills on cooking dishes yang I dah tau tu. But still… memasak ni leceh la kan. Begitu banyak step, baru siap satu lauk. Ish Eny… jangan komplen. Nak lapar lagi ke?

Tu belum cakap pasal makan sorang-sorang tu. Bosan tau tak. Hilang selera. How will my berbuka puasa be this evening. Sigh…

2nd thing; bercakap. As you all know, I ni kan manusia yang tak tak reti diam. Mulut ni prot prêt prot prêt. Diam cuma bila stress up atau marah. So bila dah tinggal sorang ni, dengan sapa lah I nak berbual-bual. Ish bosan tau bila dok diam ni. Muka tu berkerut aje. Kalau berborak tu sure boleh gelak berdekah-dekah. Ye lah ketawa ni kan salah satu rahsia awet muda *sebab tu lah I nampak muda ye kawan-kawan* So, lepas ni mungkin kekerapan I bergayut di telefon akan meningkat. Harap-harap tiadalah kesan sampingan penggunaan telefon yang terlalu kerap tu. Takut la jugak kan.

Setakat 2 hari ni, itulah saje yang terlintas. Tengoklah esok-esok dah lama, makin panjang listnya.

Atas permintaan kawan-kawan, kene la buat makan-makan kan. Tu masalah besar tu. Makan-makan maknanya kena la ada masak-masak kan. Macam mana ni? Any suggestions peep? Anyone want to offer help?